Yesterday, I decided that the thing that would make me happy was banana bread. I love bananas and banana bread. Normally, we throw in a few mini chocolate chips as favorite combination. To mix it up a little, I took my standard recipe and marbled it by adding additional cocoa to half of the batter. I have to admit I was very pleased with the beautiful marbled pattern and is was delicious to boot.
As a continuation from yesterday’s post of questions I received from a fellow blogger, I will be answering two questions “Why are we all the time trying to be a better person?” and “A better person in relation to what?”
In the past, I compared myself to other people and I thought the key to my happiness was to be like this person or that person, have these qualities, have these relationships, be that smart or pretty or whatever, the list goes on and on….
Recently, I had an epiphany, realizing that I was the problem, not everyone else. Constantly comparing myself to others and not working within my own constraints was me getting in the way of my happiness. With that understanding came an intense freedom. I no longer had to be like someone else, I could just be me and as an extension of that I no longer had to wait for someone else to like me or love me for me to be lovable or like-able. I didn’t spend my time making efforts to please others, I started to look inward for what would please me. I discovered that I needed to peel back the layers of facades that I had put up to protect myself from the hurt and pain of potential rejection and rediscover who I am today, what makes me happy today, what makes me healthy today.
What makes me happy and healthy may be different from what they were yesterday and may change tomorrow, but I accept that for today this is who I am and I, without a shadow of a doubt, am the best person I can be today, flaws and all. Meeting myself each and every day with stability, understanding, love, and integrity, I no longer look to others for those feelings, I provide it for myself. Now everyday that I wake up, I strive to be a better person than I was yesterday.
Marbled Banana Bread
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